Lately, I have been feeling like (to put it mildly and excuse my language) CRAP! I know my body! I was sure I had some awful disease, but according to my Doc and after extensive lab work...it is simply menopause.
I have been so fatigued and cannot sleep and I hurt all over. When I awake in the mornings, I feel, as if I have run a marathon and believe you me I do not do marathons! Research shows that sleeplessness and fatigue are all part of menopause. Of course, along with this, I have major allergy problems that will now require an ENT specialist. According to my recent research your allergies and sinuses also increase during menopause. As if my allergies were not bad enough all by themselves!
I also found, during my research, to expect a sudden increase around the tummy. Wow! That explains the inner tube looking thing that has settled around my waist. I walked, I did sit ups...nothing worked! It just kept growing and growing and growing..... I am so glad to find out that some type of alien thing has not taken up residence in my stomach (shewwww, what a relief!)
I thought I was too young for menopause. Research also shows it can happen as early as 35 (highly unusual and could point to some other problem). Generally it happens between 45-51. After reading that, I realize I am right there. I AM NOT TO YOUNG! (blah) I AM GETTING OLD (blah blah blah)!!!!!
Where did time go? What happened so quickly to my life; to my body? It seems it was only yesterday, I was having my babies and now I have grand babies. According to my research, menopause is explained as the following: "menopause signals the end of fertility and the beginning of a new and potentially rewarding time in a women's life". Don't you just love what that says? Especially the word potentially (potentially: meaning existing as a possibility). I suppose what that is saying is, "what becomes of menopause is strictly up to the individual".
What have I learned...time goes on.....with or without us...........The word says in the book of James 4: 14b NIV: What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.....
As each day passes I am beginning to understand this scripture more and more. Life is what we make of it...we are not promised tomorrow.... So, today I will accept that I am getting older and try my hardest to make sure I make the most of my life instead of life making the most of me... and of course, Praise my lord, for regardless of what this body is going through...HE IS GOOD!